Friday, May 16, 2008
One of the worst feelings in the world is when a hugely important person in your life gives you a talk, and the underlying message is that "you're a failure".
They mean well, they want the best for you; that's really the point of the speech. But the hidden message is that you're living in a dream world and need to re-focus on reality. When friends and family are concerned for you, and worried about your direction, it's a very frustrating feeling.
In my head, I know what I want. I know what I'm capable of. But I lack the confidence to get it. That was brought up multiple times, and it was even suggested that I seek help to instill the right confidence in myself. The problem, as it was told to me, is that he knows I'm smart. He considers me to be intelligent beyond my years, but without confidence and a set goal it goes to waste.
He's right. So I give up.
It's time to become another drone.
These past couple of days have flip-turned damn near everything for me. A sign of things to come?