So. I suppose I should explain why I haven't posted here or visited any blogs in over a week.
It's been a rough few days, to put it mildly.
The boy (as he is lovingly referred to on the ol' blog) and I have decided to part ways. We are in the process of breaking up.
It's sad. It's unbelievably painful. It's scary.
But it's happening.
We'll be splitting up our little family and leaving behind the home we made together. We'll both venture off to start new lives, and re-build ourselves.
Having never been alone, this is pretty terrifying for me. There are so many options and non-options, it has my head spinning. Whether to stay here, or move back to St. Catharines. Money issues. Personal issues. It's all jumbled.
And before anyone asks - I have no ill will towards C. At all. He is a wonderful man, who has been a great support for me. He pushed me in ways that I couldn't push myself, and saw potential I didn't let myself believe in. I'm grateful. We've been through more together than most couples can say - I'm actually proud of us both.
I loved him with all my heart for the years we've been together, and will always care for him greatly. Some things just don't work out the way you want them to. The hurt I'm feeling now is because I care so much. So I'm not in a good spot right now, but I know it will get better with time. Hopefully we won't be out of each other's lives completely.
And so, don't expect any happy, joke-riddled posts for awhile. This is gonna take some time to get over. As I pick up the pieces and start to feel normal, everything else will too I hope.