Well, it's a new year.
2010... there's a bit of a "holy shit" factor when I sit and think about it.
Ten years ago I was 16. Insecure, yet loudmouthed. Unsure of where I belonged, but loyal to those who made me feel like I did.
Meh. Guess not much has changed.
We tend to see it as a fresh start, a new beginning.
A time to make resolutions that we promise ourselves will come true.
I'm really no different.
I try to have a "fresh start" and "brand new outlook" each month, thinking it'll change everything into positives.
It hasn't. But I'm not giving up yet.
2010 will NOT be the same as 2008 and its bitchy sister 2009.
I will make 2010 my new best friend.
In return, 2010 will give me what I need.
Security. Contentedness. The drive to keep going.
And just enough difficulty to keep this chick interested.
I'm vowing here and now to fight for the things I want.
Let go of the things, and people, that I no longer need.
And continue to indulge in the beers and Big Macs I'm told to avoid.
This year is for me.
Now, if I could fast-forward time to a year from now,
There's a damn good chance I'll be spewing the same nonsense then.
It just means that I'm gonna keep trying
Til I get it right.
So Happy New Year to all of you.
May all your dreams for 2010 come true.
And if they don't?
There's always next year.
Good riddance, 2009!