Tuesday, June 29, 2010

In The Half-Light, You Saw Me As I Am

In my 27 years on this big ball o'dirt, I have always trusted my instincts.

No matter what.

People would often talk me out of it. Or try to prove me wrong (especially when my instincts gave me negative ideas about them). But I've tried my best to not question myself.

I gotta say, the instincts are almost always right.

I've just recently realized how right they tend to be. When I've gotten bad feelings about things, or somehow knew that something was happening (or going to happen), I did my best to downplay it.

But I was bang on. And through  most of my life, these silly little instincts have been right on the money.

It makes me more than a little sad, because it's the "bad feelings" that usually come to be reality.

That's life, I guess.

Hindsight is 20/20, but instincts have foresight. I'll always trust mine.

They tell you the stuff you don't want to admit is real. It's your own personal "sign".

And speaking of signs...

While at a music festival this weekend, I heard (more than once) a few songs that have very personal meaning to me. It was a bit jarring to hear them repeatedly, and all in the same day.









And so my instinct is telling me
that I was supposed to be reminded
of all the things these songs brought back for me.



26 comments:

Anonymous said...

It's time you faced the obvious and realize you need to date a successful musician.

Kris said...

Ha. Know any? ;)

I have a tough time dating band guys, cuz groupies and slutty fans make me more insecure.

Anonymous said...

Stay away from 'bands' and go for 'artists'. They have zero tolerance for groupies and slutbags. In fact I helped Josh Freese escape 3 groupies who were after him last fall in Toronto. True story.

Kris said...

No shit? He doesn't like groupies? I'm impressed.

Alright, you find me a nice 'artist' dude who would be into a girl like me and will stay away from groupies... :)

Anonymous said...

Naw, he told me he has a wife and three kids who he loves dearly and he doesn't have time or patience to deal with that stuff. Same with the other band members for the most part.

Alright, one tall, dark, handsome, respectful, moral, bad ass musician coming up.

yep said...

I'd be curious to hear about these instincts sometime.

Curious indeed.

Kris said...

Anon - I don't think he'd be real!

yep - Curiosity killed the cat and his ideas about things.

Anonymous said...

Trust me. I know them. But why do you say 'into a girl like me'? C'mon they'll write songs about you, put little inside jokes in the liner notes.. it'll be fun.

Kris said...

:)

Does sound fun. I could use some fun.

Mike D. said...

You could always date me. What do your instincts tell you about me?

Error Vale said...

Did someone say, tall, dark, handsome, respectful, moral badass???

I've got it ALL.

THAT Guy said...

Read Malcolm Galdwell's "Blink". He basically says that your instincts are your mind processing thousands of points of stimuli and data in an instance and should be trusted. Much like when you have a decision to make you gather all available data and think things over, your instincts are your mind doing this really fast.

Go with your gut. Unless it's a beer gut. In that case do some sit ups.

Kris said...

D - My instincts tell me I haven't seen you in years.

Vale - Don't you lack morals? Hence the bad-assedness?

That Guy - Excellent. Good to know. I have reasons to trust my Instincts of Awesomeness. And while I DO drink beer, there's no beer gut. So it's trustworthy!

Veil said...

No, I'm a badass because I throw tennis balls at doors. Morals have nothing to do with that.

Kris said...

Hahahahahhaa.

Ha.

Anonymous said...

All three are wonderful songs, Kristen. Favorites?

And are we allowed to ask about what they reminded you of?

Kris said...

Definite favourite songs.

And they each remind me of different things. Some to do with depression, heartbreak, really low times... and some to do with specific instances. Good and bad.

ghost said...

nutshell is one of, if not the, my very favorite songs.

ghost said...

i miss layne. id i ever tell you i named my son after him?

Kris said...

One of my favourites too. I cry when I hear it lately (but what else is new...).

I don't think I knew you had a son named Layne. :)

Friend said...

Kris,

I'd like to tell you something that I fear you may not believe.

You are one of the brightest, most intelligent people I've ever met. Ever. I know you doubt this. Situations through your life have made you think less of you. But you are such a shining star.

Of course your instincts are right. Of COURSE they are! And you must always trust them. You are too smart not to.

Friend

Kris said...

Friend - So... you HAVE met me? We know each other? Thanks for the nice words. Wish I knew who ya were. And I promise to always trust 'em from now on. :)

ghost said...

i do.

Anonymous said...

Stand Up and Shout!

Play this as your wakeup call every morning for 5 days and something magical will begin to happen.

Embrace the Dio, embrace....there...there.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FqYrO03RyUs

Anonymous said...

2-4-6-8, we demand an update

Kris said...

3-6-9-12

There's one now, so go to hell! ;)

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