I've been waking up at 4am every night for the past week.
I sleep better than usual for a few hours, then suddenly wake up. At this point, without fail, strange memories start up, fast and furious, and negative thoughts run wild. This, coupled with the usual anxiety attacks, leads to a nasty night. I'm not a fan. It's stressing me out more than it should.
Things are happening and things are changing, and I think they're the cause. At 4am, it all seems like a really bad idea and it forces me to recall bad memories and stress about what may lie ahead. These things make me want to scream "I give up, I take it all back!" and go hide somewhere safe. Become complacent.
But at 4pm, those same things seem exciting; falling into place and pushing the bad memories away.
It's amazing how day and night can be so different.
This chick here is going on a little unknown journey. Good or bad, I can't say yet. I don't know what to expect, because things often take a different route than I assume they will.
But I hope you'll come along for the bumpy ride.
Bye bye past mistakes. I'm ready for the new ones.