I used to believe that when a string of bad things happened, one great thing would pop up soon after.
This usually proved true when I was younger.
After a bad day that involved some very nasty scenarios, I was asked to a movie by a boy I had a crush on.
Years later, I had a horrible and embarrassing situation that left me mortified and upset. That same day, my first boyfriend asked me to be his girlfriend.
When I broke my foot, crashed my car and all my hair fell out, I won the lottery and got my own TV show. (Ok that one is a lie, but you get the point.)
So whenever the really awful things would happen, I'd just tell myself "Don't worry, girly. This just means that something good will happen soon."
Well, I've stopped believing that.
After the past few years, and then this one which I've dubbed The Year of the Suck, it seems as though things will never balance out again. As Masuka said to me just the other day, "I'm beginning to wonder if you just have really bad luck or what.. cuz you dont seem to ever get a break."
Masuka is wise, as you all know.
I realize that I whine a lot lately (it's my damn blog and I'll bitch if I want to). But honestly, the list of things that have gone wrong is astounding. Obviously, there are things too personal to blog about and even things that I haven't told anyone at all. And as I sit here, after another bad day, and recall all of the negatives of this past year... it makes me wants to crawl in a hole, because I'm wary of what's next.
That being said... if Young Kris was right, and all the bad shit simply means that something kinda good will happen soon and sustain some type of balance - does that mean 2011 will more than make up for the shit-tastic ways of 2010?
If so, my friends who have stuck by me will be in for some awesomeness. And so will I.
If not, this ship will keep sinking. Glug, glug, glug.
So... do you believe in karma? Fate? Balance? Or do you think stuff just happens simply because...well, it just does?
Enlighten me, monkeys. I'm curious, like George.