Heart pounding, and stomach sick.
Mind racing, hands sweating.
An explosion of tears threatening; waiting at the brink.
Choking back each breath.
Anxiety. Loss of stability.
Shock and fear.
That's how it feels. As minimally as it can be explained.
The simplest emotions can have the greatest effect, only to tear down the brave walls we build for ourselves. I'm human. I exist and feel, and it's those very feelings that bring me to my knees and make me weak. It's senseless, but very real. We affect each other. You affect me.
The moment passes.
Composure regained, if only briefly.
Until the next trigger suddenly appears to break the foundation again.
The cycle continues for me, but it won't always. It's a learning process through the years.
Have you stopped yours? Is it the same for you?